We live in a society where the visual appearance is the most prominent. My last blog was about the visual appearance of people. This blog is going to be a bit different. I want to focus on the internal beauty and admire how far you can come mentally in just a short time. Your mental health and confidence can be seen in your outer beauty.
As I sit here with my dog and 4 other beautiful amazing ladies, I can’t help but reflect back on what got me to this place.
A weekend away at a cabin by a beautiful big lake with 4 women I admire and lucky to call my friends, and our dogs. Where have these people been all my life?
I have found that, the more I find out who I am- the more comfortable I become with who I am, then the good things start happening for me. I used to spend so much time worrying about what people thought about me, and trying to fit in and look the part. That never got me to where I am today, and the friends I had at that time were very toxic.
Crossfit gave me something more to focus on rather than my body image, it gave me goals that were not visual. I wanted that pull up, I wanted to clean and jerk 65kg, I wanted to run 800 meters sub 4 mins. Each week I kept accomplishing small victories and it had such a huge impact on my mental health and confidence. The toxic, useless, waste of energy things that used to plague my brain just seemed to drift away as I started to concern myself with thoughts that were about making myself into the best version of me I can. I became happier with who I was, and who I was becoming.
“Hold the Vision Trust the Process”- Unknown
I used to dread the journey and just want the results. It was never about the journey before, just the result. But now I love the journey. Its not about the result, it is about the journey. If you think about it, when you get to the result then your done, right? Where do you go from there? In my mind I would think okay I won’t be happy until I’ve reached that result, whatever the result was. I never thought beyond that.
My body has never reached the result I wanted, and I realized it never will, nor do I want it to. I wanted a smaller butt, smaller thighs, toned shoulder and abs, just be really lean and pretty.
Uuuuuhhh, ya that did not happen. My coach the other day literally told me my legs are rocks, that my quads looked like dolphins- Haha. Basically my knee cap would be the snout of the dolphin and the head of the dolphin was the big quad muscle that sticks out the side of my leg. Not exactly the sexy feminine look I was going for, but I’m so happy with dolphin looking legs. They can squat a lot of weight and to me, that is sexy.
All the flaws I used to pick apart I am now grateful for. The fat on my body is no longer useless annoying fat, its fuel. I no longer care that my muscles are too big for most girls clothing to fit properly, because I get told I look jacked and I can see the admiration in someone’s eyes when they tell me that.
“A flower does not compete with the flower next to it, It just blooms”
So as I sit here and reflect on who I was a year ago and who I am now, yes my visual appearance might have changed. But I am a whole new different person than I was a year ago, and I am soo much happier. The biggest change has been on the inside.
All it took was Just1Rep at a time to become who I am now!
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